I don't know who this will hurt more, you or me
I'm not sure that I ever want to find out
Why can't you keep this terrible knowledge inside?
I know the truth. I found it out.
Like a caged bird, it flutters and it screams
It wants out as badly as I want it to stay
It cries to be released but I cringe when I think
It must happen someday but oh! I dread it
I hope it never comes, when you will say this
I can see in your eyes what you're thinking of
And I'm frightened of being the one you're chasing
I'm flattered but I'm running away full speed
I don't want your attentions. This wasn't meant to be
Why can't you see what I see? It's so clear
I know that you're not the one. I know it
But you don't--one sided situations bring shame
To me and to you even without intentions to do so
All I want is to escape this backfire, this misconception
This is not how it was supposed to end
This is not what my purpose was by any means
I wanted only you to love her, not me! Not me
But here we are, my heart seeping up
Slowly leaking through my tough mask
In tears and in sobs and in red cheeks, red eyes
I was being the good friend, but I couldn't see this
What kind of fool am I? I fail at one thing
And suddenly my walls are down so often
Every time I see you, I'm nervous but
I'm not sure why--it's you, not me, right?
When you open your mouth, I know what's coming
And I want to run away as far as I can
I'm never coming back, I don't want to face this
I don't want to break your heart like I have others
I don't want to see the pain in your eyes that I've seen
That I've given to others. Don't blame me, please
For what I can't help. I know what you don't
I can see what you choose not to and I can feel
What you ignore, what passes you by so slowly
You had so many chances before this, why didn't you
Take those chances? Why didn't you love HER?
Instead I am stuck here in this situation
This awful place that I hate to be because
It can only ever end badly and
I don't want to see you hurt
